brouillons (brouillions) wrote in unrequited_love,

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They teach us to avoid cliches, but here you have it: a love straight out of a YA book

I don't really know what I'm supposed to say so I'll be straightforward about this: I'm 18 and I just fell in love for the first time. (Holy shit, am I retarded). Anyways, the guy is a classmate of mine, we've been in the same class for 2 years now and I figured out there I might have feelings for him a couple of months ago. He's good-looking, and smart, and really, really shy. I think he got too much attention from girls in the past because he's really uncomfortable around them and as for me...well, let's just say I am in a serious need of a filter for my mouth.

Funny thing is I didn't even understand what those girls see in him...I don't see what I see in him either., from time to time, but it's nothing deep or meaningful. I barely hear him utter more than a few sentences and this sucks because quite frankly I don't know anything about the guy...there are some things we have in common (we both have a little limp, how cool is that), but so what? He shows no interest in me, nor in any other girl, and...well, it's like a love story, straight out of a YA book. Guy shows zero inclination, and instead of sobering up, the girl hurts even more.

My behavior is starting to get ridiculous. I'm actually halting my pace if I see the bus he usually takes because he might get down from it and we may walk to class. It's ridiculous, cheesy, totally teenage and idiotic. I can barely live with myself because this situation looks that hopeless, and I can't rack my lovesick brain for any ideas because it's practically empty. I don't know whether to be angry at myself or cry: this is my last year of high school and in all likehood we may never meet again afterwards.

So here is how I see it, I can:

A/Continue like this until the end and then live it off as if it never was. I've done this the last time I thought I liked a guy and it has worked for me.

B/Grow a pair and tell him how I feel. He may never speak to me again, but given what he's seen from me until now he'd probably think I was joking and laugh it off.

C/Any suggestions?

I really need some advice here, mostly because I don't have that many friends and the ones I dare confide in don't really know what to say. What would you do?

I've never wanted a cliche so badly...
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